The Way Way Back

It's 2:17 in the morning. I can't sleep and my break is over after IFF Boston. I didn't see the closing film In a World tonight and see Lake Bell or check out the parties this year and didn't check out a private bday party at All Asia for this photographer Gina Manning either but it's ok. Tao and I saw Jeff,  DJ Knife, on Mass Ave after returning from Area Four.  My cousin won the primary late last night, Tao put up an amazing video and Josh posted the new foodlove site. This past week I've been thinking so much about where my life is going and what I want. Seeing everyone on Facebook is always inspiring especially on nights that I don't really want to sleep to wake up. It's ironic that I like to dream without sleeping. For the past week I've felt really free and I can get used to it. It's hard going back to the same routine. I saw so many films including John's Occupiers. With all the things I want to do I feel like things have changed and I need to get stuff done. With so many things I want to do it's hard to decide on where I should start first but I know I can't quit. I've got to take things day by day, week by week, month by month. I hope to make this the year I finally go from Final Draft to Final Cut. The deadline for IFP is Friday and it makes me think of my Sundance artist statement where I wrote that I want to finance my projects through photography and cinematography. Which is why I want to go to the Mass Art Summer Film School next month.  We shall see. Regardless I want to shoot a short I think I might start with a doc on myself, not sure what it would be yet. I keep thinking food or weight loss or exercise or maybe all three and make it about a lifestyle change. Nights like these it just makes me want to just get started especially after seeing all the things my friends are doing from Facebook from their travels to career moves. It's what's keeping me excited and motivated.